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Post by Severus Snape on May 31, 2010 10:51:22 GMT -5
Snape had done well to keep from it being noted that he was still speaking to Lily, though she was speaking more to James now & some how he could see him self losing her & yet there appeared to be something she was holding back form him perhaps she was not, it could have been in his own mind but, it felt like it. Then again perhaps she disliked of those he hung around with, though he could not blame here he knew they where not the best to hang with but, they assisted him so that is what had made him stay just as James group was known for to band together.
But, he did hope that they would get a better chance to speak Lily was not avoiding him he knew that but, there was much going on & so he had sent her an owl requesting that she meet him that they needed to speak. Snape at least needed to know where things where between them, he felt the need to know for sure.
When Lily had shown up they did speak & Snape was quick to find out why if felt like there were fewer times between them, though it had not been as he though no, there was so much more now. True they had there drifting time when he had called her a mug blood & he had begged for her forgiveness. It had taken it felt like years to get her to take him back as a friend of sorts. That had been the time she had started to see James more, as if to get back at him but, even with that what he was learning now changed everything & his life would not be the same again. He was going to be a father, he knew he was young & yet the idea gave him a thrilling feel but, there was also the fact that they where not married & they had not though more rationally to of waited tell they where married to be taking actions.
Snape had told her that he would married her as soon as she wanted, she was not showing at the time & later a spell could be used to hid the truth but, he only hoped that everything went well & good for he was starting to find a reason to live again something he knew that Jamie would not take well to but, in that moment he could not of cared but, he would have to keep him self guard more so then ever because of the news.
He had stayed with Lily as long as he could before she had to go to the hospital wing & told him she would be fine & she would see him the next day. He had wanted to come but, she had sent him off, he was unwilling to go but, he did never the less & now found him self walking the streets of Hogsmeade.
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Post by malfoyfan on Jun 2, 2010 17:35:59 GMT -5
"I must say, I'm impressed. You've kept away from that mudblood. Good boy," Jamie said coldly, slipping out of the shadows and shortening her stried so that Snape could keep up. No one knew what had happened to her beside Voldemort, though many had questioned where the child had went. Jamie had come with an excuse that had shutup a few. Jamie ignored the title of Murderr plastered to her by the others though. "You've done well with the lessons lately. Might be ableto move up to tailing me when I'm on missions," Jamie said indifferently. Personally, she had lost interest in Snape, in everybody, and just wanted to be alone. Maybe if she said he was good enough she would be allowed to crawl into a dark, cold hole and die.
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Post by Severus Snape on Jun 2, 2010 23:28:24 GMT -5
Snape heard Jamie’s words his eyes looked to her but, he showed no signed that her words effected him” He watched her approached he turned to fallow her, he knew she had been a way for a bit but, he had heard rumors many rumors that it was now to the point that he was not going to ask, he figured to do so would only get him in more trouble & no answers perhaps later he would ask.
With her last words they where more surprise then anything, true he felt he was getting better but, he did not think he was to that point more so because it was not that long ago that Jamie had been telling him he had to try harder. “I am honored you think so Jamie & when you feel I am ready to shadow you on a mission I will do so” He could not back out now, to do so would likely send a flair up about the truth that he had to keep hidden.
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Post by malfoyfan on Jun 3, 2010 14:24:55 GMT -5
Jamie glanced ove at snape. Something about his tone wasn't right. "You don't sound at all thrilled," she commented, raising an eyebrow. Then she returned her gaze to where they were walking. "You seem distracted, Snape," she said as she studied a human approaching them. Why couldn't Snape be as focused or eager as Bellatrix? Jamie rolled her eyes. She sure had picked a lousy protégée. Maybe she had gotten lucky with Jacksin.
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Post by Severus Snape on Jun 3, 2010 17:34:27 GMT -5
Snape heard her words “I am though I am suppressed you would say you think, I am ready for fallowing you on a mission more so because it felt like you wanted more of me before I got to such a point but, it is not my place to question you for you know better if I am ready for such things, I am ready to serve my Lord & you Jamie in what you ask of me” He was distracted for more then one reason “I suppose I am a bit distracted, it is growing closer to when I will graduated Hogwarts” It was true there was much going on for tests & quiz’s to the Owls & then the newts. He knew that he had to keep his voice at a better level but, he did feel he needed more skill though he figured that he would think he needed more skill when he was ready.
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Post by malfoyfan on Jun 7, 2010 17:53:01 GMT -5
Jamie glared at the person passing them. "I don't exactly think you're ready. It's just that we need more people ready to fight, now," she said. "It's not your grades you're worried about. Don't lie to me, Snape," she said coldly. She could tell he was lying. He had hesitated for a moment too long for Jamie's liking, and the fact that he would tell her the KNEWTs were the cause of his worries was so unoriginal that it wasn't even funny.
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Post by Severus Snape on Jun 7, 2010 22:12:53 GMT -5
Snape had not missed her words, he knew to well she could since the lie & yet he knew that he would have to learn to lie well not only for him self but, he knew if he did not then heck would break lose even more in his so called world. “So are master would send into battle one that was not fully ready, as if to see how they fair & are worthy of being considered worthy of joining the ranks of the D.E.” His words where not a change more, a question of interested “My grades oddly do bother me at times when, I do not get the grades I want but, you are right it is not the full reason. I suppose the idea of killing some one has not set in fully yet” And yet it was something once he did he never could change, he had touchier people, cast a killing curse & yet he had yet to kill, so far he had yet to stain his hands but, he knew to well he could see it that he would not be unstained for long.
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Post by malfoyfan on Jun 7, 2010 22:29:20 GMT -5
Jamie rolled her eyes. How could she have had chosen such a squeamish Protege? "Our Master would send everyone in. Whoever doesn't come out alive clearly isn't good enough," she said pointedly. Jamie glared at Snape for a moment. "Get used to it- fast. If you don't, you'll be the one who is dying," she growled threateningly. She would not be shamed in front of her fellows, much less her master..
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Post by Severus Snape on Jun 7, 2010 22:57:37 GMT -5
Snape heard her words “Clearly” Was his only answer to her first words, he did not flinch at her last words “I have already grown use to the idea, I will not fail you or are master” His tone shown no fear at the idea of killing or dying but, he also help a promise with in it that he would become one of the best with time, for when he put his mind to it he was not bested so easily.
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Post by malfoyfan on Jun 8, 2010 8:41:19 GMT -5
"Mind you keep that promise, Snape," Jamie said coolly. She would not be questioned by the other Death Eaters about whether or not she was teaching him well enough, she already had been questioned whether or not her son had really died, and whether or not she was good enough to serve. Jamie had snapped at them. She was ten times more or a veteran than all of hem put together. She had served him since before she had first found out about him. New crowds were coming, taking up the mantle of being the most loyal followers. Jamie snorted menally....
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Post by Severus Snape on Jun 8, 2010 10:07:27 GMT -5
Snape did not miss Jamie’s words but, it was clear she was more on edge now then when this was all started between then he had questioned if it was something he had done or if it was more the rumors he had heard, after all when the rumors dealt with you having a child & then losing it they where harder to over look. Though Snape had said nothing on it or asked on it as if figuring if there was any truth to it to bring it up meant that it would only cause more trouble then he would want but, perhaps later he would ask on it but, form the looks of it now was not the time.
“You think I would fail so easily” Perhaps it was simply him living almost every day here where it had to fight where he was questioned on if he was good enough or fast enough. He would not fail so easily, he knew that right now he had to much to risk to fail not that he ever took failing in anything for he always wanted to be the best, in anything he put him self in the mind to beat.
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